There’s this person and I’ll call him Brian. Brian, because that’s not his real name and I don’t want to write “this person” or “that guy” anymore, really irriates me. I’m not talking about what he says, but his entire persona. When he walks into the room, I wish I could go the other way. How horrid is that of me? I’ll be at my desk and I’ll notice him making his way toward me; the only way Brian can – and the thoughts barrage my mind.
Thoughts of how I wish I could be anywhere else but here. Thoughts of, Dear GOD let him talk for only a short time…of if at all possible, just have him walk on by.
Where does this come from? Why do I have these feelings, such strong emotions against another person? I mean, it’s instant disdain. And I try, just today I really tried to be polite. I tried to be cordial. But by the third or forth sentence out of his mouth, I was gone. I was wishing he would leave, I was wanting an excuse to get me out of his presence. And once he did finally leave, I felt relieved. Then came the guilt that I always feel after these awful thoughts and feelings pass through.
This isn’t how we’re supposed to treat each other is it? Even in our minds we shouldn’t have these thoughts. Right?
Seriously, what is happening to my psyche? I’m not liking this negative person emerging from my soul. Not one bit.
Categories: Afternoon Musings
Tagged: bothersome people, irritating
I was given a fish. Totally free. That has to be one of the top rated feelings to have: when someone gives you something for free. It doesn’t matter what it is does it? I guess you wouldn’t feel that great if someone gave you something disgusting, but I’m trying to keep this positive. Gross stuff forgotten, I think receiving a gift and finding out there is no cost has to be a top five, right? This past week I was given a fish (which hopefully will live longer than a year) and tickets to see a ball game…all free.
Of course, the truly human thing would be to return the favor. Maybe not so much to whomever gave you the free things, but just to be generous with the things in your possession.
I think we’ve come to the understanding that we deserve anything that is given us. “I deserved those free tickets because of all the hard work I do” “That fish was a reward for…”
I see this mentality spreading rapidly throughout my community. Many teenagers don’t understand what it means to hold a job. They feel that if they don’t want to go in for work today, that they’ll just not go. If they get fired? They know they can find another job elsewhere. They just don’t need to enter this last job on their resume.
I remember not wanting to go to certain jobs as I grew up. I remember contemplating calling in and lying about why I couldn’t make it. But I didn’t. Maybe I should just pat myself on the back and say I have stronger ethics than today’s youth…but I don’t think I will.
What was the cause for expecting to be paid so much for doing so little?
Categories: Morning Thoughts
Tagged: free stuff, laziness, teenagers
