I think I have reached critical mass. Not that I’m going to explode in anger or frustration, but that I want to quit my job. It has been on my mind for quite some time now. I no longer wake up with great expectation for the day. I’m actually dreading coming to work. It has gotten to the point where I don’t want to come to work and that has never happened in the last five years of working here.
But I need to take a step back and try to find out the reasons behind this level of disdain. Am I bemoaning this experience because, like many workers in America, I will cut and run when things get difficult? I mean, this is a seriously new low for me in the business world. Is it a matter of me becoming something new to combat this negativity? Do I reinvent myself?
I really need to begin praying about it. The thing with praying for direction is that, outside of one instance, I’ve never felt a solid call or direction from God. Like many of us, I’m prone to focus on the times I haven’t “heard” and should continue to have faith that He will give direction where it is due.
Is this a time of trial? Am I being prepared for something to come?
Another factor is my spouse who doesn’t want to movie. I do.
